have discussed this to death. and i've finally done what i was spsed to do weeks ago.
how come it always seems like the period leading up to my birthday will be the WORST period of my life. ALWAYS always always. first him, then you. then her. and this year, fucking hell. my birthday is a bad omen. either that or i have all my badluck at the end of the official year for myself.
im not making sense
trsining today was fucked up in a way. i fucked up.
i really want to dig into my blanket. or just go for a night walk and clear my head. and cry my eyes out for all the shit thats happening this year.
but the tears wont come
;10:30 PM
