i feel so guilty now. i knew this would happen. but no, i didn't say anything. i thought maybe i was wrong, that maybe i thought too much, that maybe because it was you, it'd be different. but hell no. in the end, you got hurt, i got hurt, and what's there left to say? i wished i said something, but i knew even if i turned back the clock, i wouldn't. our friendship, or what little that is left of it, is just too fragile to jeopardise it. but is that what a friend should be? just look on helplessly as you walk towards the land of hurt again, without speaking, without a word of warning? just reading your blog entry is depressing. i guess i did see it coming. i'm sorry, and it hurts to see you in the same situation i was one and a half years ago. we're both hurt, both lost, both sinking, no buoy in sight. i hope that soon, you'd find your buoy, as i did find mine. telling you to cheer up is just bull since i can't possibly experience what you are feeling though i went through this too. i hope you take really good care of yourself though. it's not worth it. i know. it might feel damn shit now, but i guess we were all not meant to be. it's too late to turn back, hope you find your buoy which brings you safely to your ultimate destination. i do miss you alot still, and i hope someday, somehow, we'll mend this hole in our friendship. it's not worth being like this, over someone else. someone who doesn't deserve to be the cause of our unhappiness. i hope you will be well soon. i'm sorry for everything that happened. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
from your remorseful friend, me.
;9:42 PM
