Sunday, March 20
i'm a failure. but i guess i've come to accept it for what i am. but the feeling of despair and desolation just overcame me, almost reducing me to tears. it's alright saying i still have a chance, that i'm not that bad. however, it's just that i know whatever comforting words said, aren't really true. i'm really lousy and i admit that. it just hurts to lose like that. just like that. though it's not worth destroying my time and my mood, affecting those around me, i just can't help it for those moments of weakness. i felt like giving up, but even after i held on, i kept asking myself, 'was there a point in doing this?'
dont know why i'm so affected by it. ughh i don't want to go back to sku tmr and face you. because i know i'm really not up to standard. even after i tried so hard. so hard, for nothing
anyway my earhole bled today. as in there was blood flowing out, dirtying my shirt. hahah disgusting.
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thankyou dear, for staying with me when i was feeling down. and for encouraging me to take it in my stride. sorry if i disappointed you for what i did ytd. but i'm really glad you came, and i'll miss you so much. so much.
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