okay okay i need to chill. decided that past entries always contain dislike of some content. am getting really sensitive and emotional these days which is not good. i'm trying my best in class to at least understand some things taught. but it seems like it still isnt enough. there's always something else more wanting. and things weighing on my mind. and friendships to salvage before they turn for the worse.
was talking to johanna at her house ytd at length and we really spilled lots of things out. i guess i should stop being so judgemental about some people. learn to accept people as they are and hope they do the same. if they dont, then well, there's got to be an alternative rather than starting to dislike them i hope.
more than a week more to endure. soon it'll be cny. somehow this year's atmosphere seems diff from past years. like there's sth missing. maybe its all the changes, all the people, all the memories and all the things that happened and didnt. but doesnt that occur every year? im rambling on again and again. i need to throwing fits and resorting to harsh words in my head. i should curb my habit of shreding paper (esp exam papers) before it gets worse. i should find a better outlet to air my griefs. maybe i should just stop thinking so much and bury myself into my sch bag. it still smells of the candle i bought last year
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