Thursday, October 23
he's online.. i said hi.. but he still hasnt replied. it hurts. hurts that he still ignores me for duno wad. i duno wad i did. wad i did to deserve his cold shoulder. why cant he just explain.. den i can reali forget abt him..? seeing his nick online for the first time in many weeks.. dun understand it cos its in latin or wadeva-language. hai. and i tot i was finally getting over him. but when i just saw his nick on the online list.., memories just flooded back.. juz cant forget. i try to tell myself that maybe he's busy.. thats why he hasnt replied. but somehow it doesnt sound feasible. im tired, of making up all sorts of excuses. for his non-existant phonecall which he promised.. for his cold shoulder. for aLL the tings.. it freaking hurts. and no one's like.. understanding me.. wad im tinking... i want to noe why he's treating me like this. how come he can treat it as nth happened between us?!! dun understand.. maybe i never will.. unless he clarifies everyting, which i doubt at this point. since when did aniting he promised, he did? zilch
i feel pathetic. thats all. having to say all this. and still no solution. and i shall NOT grouse ani further.. no point. [im sure doing a swell job convincing myself]
wo ke yi shi ni de zhu jiao
ye ke yi bei yuan fen cha diao
guan yu ai de shi
na ge wei zhi
wo ye bu zhi dao
jing tian wo shi ni de zhu jiao
ming tian ni zhen me bu zhi dao
ai qing de gu shi
zhen me shou chang
shui dou liao bu dao
-=[ai qing gu shi]=-
;9:04 PM
